Moving back home. It's something i guess i've always wanted, ya know to be by my family. Now since it's drawing near and its actually happening i kinda am 2nd guessing myself but then feeling bad for it. Family is wonderful please don't get me wrong but sometime theres alot of Drama. My father was recently on "strike" against me because i finally got attitude with him about calling 50 millions times a day, he only calls so i can check all these things for him about his fiance in the Philippines he is bout to marry and try to bring state side (thats another story) After 2yrs i've had my fill- i can't always drop everything and do what he needs and my father is one of those types that if you don't get the EXACT info he is looking for or take too long he gets this gawd awful attitude. Then he tell my grandmother (his mom) all about how rude i was.. got her talking mad crap. Then my LITTLE SISTER calls me a "fucken bitch" because i don't call her all the time. WTF?!!! She is 6yrs younger then me.. now i dunno how yall reading this were raised but in my family that kinda disrespect isn't tolerated and will not be tolerated through siblings either. Sorry family- but i have a 3yr old. I have a house to take care of, i am 6 months pregnant, i am trying to prepare for a move and just live the life i have. I am NOT ignoring everyone or trying to be rude i just don't have my phone glued to my hip like a little teenager. I don't sit and stare at my phone and wonder who to call. Yes, i miss calls because i am doing things, no i may not always remember to call you back. Sheesh.
Then talking with my family-- they are all like. WE CAN BE THERE WHEN THE BABY IS BORN!! BAHAHAHAHAH!! NOT-NEVER-NO!!!! I will not allow any guests until the following day, the only exception is MY OWN mother. I'm sorry that may upset some, but i think having a child is something my core family should only be there for and have time with first. Whom ever is watching Emma will bring her to me when i ask and i want time with just my children and husband, i don't think thats selfish. Then when i allow guest or get home i am not going handing off my child to everyone. Just thinking about that STRESSES me out.
My MIL- i love her but we have a love/hate relationship. She JUST stopped telling me that patrick and i "may" work...... She gets upset because we are far away, but never asks to talk to Emma. She gets mad i don't post all my pics on Wal*Mart.com but won't try to skype or wecam with Emma. She was upset to find out about this child because "its another grandchild she will not be able to see". Alot of the things she says are hard to swallow and walk away from. Today she asked some questions in regaurds to my recent glucose screen and then said "good luck with that" . I know that sounds like i am looking to far into it but how caring/concerned do you sound when you say "good luck with that" over a medical issue. I dunno...
All i know is i hope i am at least 3 hours away from EVERYONE. I need my space, i dunno if i am just that anti-social or just that mean of a person.
I love my family but i need S-P-A-C-E!!!! I just sound like a butt head when i re-read this but its on my mind alot lately.
OH MY GOODNESS BETH!!!! I feel the same ways sometimes!! To bad you weren't moving closer to me so we could have play groups and talk about it lol. I actually had to have a nurse kick my mil out of the room because she kept coming in while I was in labor and kept asking me stuff and just talking to me (I was not on pain meds)!!! Then they put a sign up saying no one was aloud in my room and she got all mad and came in anyway!! My FIl just walked right in too! LOL Jeremy didn't call anyone til way later after I had the baby for our 2nd one :) worked out much better. So I understand how you can be nervous and yeah I hate people touching my baby too, I didn't go to church for a couple weeks cuz I didn't want people to ask if they can hold her....I don't know how to say no, I'm kind of a push over. So if you ever need to stress drop me a messege because I totally understand.
ReplyDeleteAnd I just noticed, I comment on all your blog post alot....lol sorry