14+2

Getting very anxious for my gender scan i won't lie... i wished on turkey wish bone for a boy but patrick got the better half. haha. he wouldn't tell me what he wished for. I truthfully have no idea if i perfer a gender. Sometime i think i do. A boy obviously cause thats what 'everyone' wants a boy & girl. Also having a boy would be new to me which is always exciting. BUT- a girl cause they are just precious and i love buyng cute lil girl stuff. DUH and i think a girl would be best for Emma cause there is no nobody better then your sister. I can def feel where my uterus is now pretty well above my pubic bone. This morning babies HB was in the 140's but was moving and kicking about i am not so worried about the slower HB anymore as i know it's normal i guess i was just used to Emm's which was faster 160;s.

I'm back to drinking enure...there are really only two things i can drink right now. One being choc. ensure and other other my Lime La Croix. Patrick doesn't like that i don't drink water but i sersiouly just can't i throw it up...and i mean instantly it's STILL ice cold when it comes back into my mouth. Bleh. Still being crabby about my vits too..i take 3 of emm's gummy one which almost match my prenatals perfectly the only missing thing is calcium. I try to make up for in food and with my ensure. I feel bad not doing whats proper but i am doing what is best and works for me..if i try my vits and drink water instead of my la criox i get sick and throw up. Then i will lose alot more..not just vits and water but my food. This works for me and i try my best to make up for what i am lacking in. I can no longer eat take out...i get insta sick. Most junk food as well..body just doesn't digest it properly. I have to stick to basic wholesome type foods. One thing i have found recently is i cannot eat onions which are/were one of my favorite things to eat. The taste just lingers for to long in my mouth.. anything with an after taste i just can't do. Patrick says "everything makes you wanna throw up"... which is pretty much true, But it's not so much morning sickness anymore..just some things my preggo body can't take. I never had this problem with emm's pregnancy til the very end. My morning sickness was FAR worse with emma and lasted ALOT longer... its true when they say every pregnancy is different. 

Tonight i am having meatloaf and it will be my first time making it, i am excited. I'll post a pic of it later lol.

Later i'll have another listen to the baby when i know he/she is more active and see if i can hear the HB a bit faster. It's hard to believe i am in 2nd trimester. I remember finding out at 3 weeks and thinking 2nd tri was soooo damn far away. First week of march needs to HURRY up!!! I thought i felt the baby was a girl at first....but now i just don't have any feeling at all. I just want a healthy baby and to know the gender so i can buy and get Emma ALL ready to be a BIG sister!!!!! <3 Life is Good...especially with my WONDERFUL husband BEAUTIFUL daughter and PRECIOUS lil one in my tummy + kitten shit (our no name kitten lol).