--ugh-- almost over though

its been nearly 3 weeks of being homeless and let me tell ya---- STRESS!!! wholey shit.

We have been living in countless hotels, different family members and even in different states. You don't even wanna know the money we have gone through so far-- we are taking several grand between hotels, gas, uhauls and eating and whatever else.

Living under families roofs is also a HUGE stresser-- as a family we are very used to doing things our way and are comfortable with how we run the show. I mean isn't everyone?!! Sleeping in uncomfortable beds, using some elses bathroom-- making food in someone else's home. Not very comfortable. Add a 3yr old and 8 month pregnant women=  FAIL. Then also knowing there is NOTHING you can do to better your situation. Then parenting differences. Emma was getting to the point where she knew starting at one of the adults by the end one of the adults in the house would tell her yes and she was becoming AWEFUL!!!!!!! Parenting being over ruled at every turn and not getting any time with MY CHILD. Not being able to cook and clean for my family. Just being uncomfortable at every turn. Every suggestion or comment had a remark-- pull my effing hair out stressful.

Finding a place to live in our new town was just IMPOSSIABLE!! I mean just rediculous, when i say there is NOTHING i mean it literally. NOT A DAMN THING!! yeah i could get a town hosue for 1,200 with NOTHING included. Well back at Lewis that would be an amazing deal.. but here BAH isn't even that much. We would like to  live within the BAH so we can live within our means and have the money to continue living comfortably. Nobody  likes cutting them selfs shorts and having to live pay check to pay check.

I am happy to say we do actually have a place lined up now--we wanted to get in friday but its not up to us. Its up to how fast these people can get the paper work and other things done with. So probly saturday now.. LAME!!! EFFING LAME!! i want to get into to it TODAY RIGHT NOW AND RIGHT THIS VERY MOMENT!!!!!!!

Now since the stress of finding a place is over with now its like WHOLEY SHIT I AM HAVING A SON IN 3-5 WEEKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Like we have just been putting this off and now it's happening SUPER SOON!! he doesn't have a crib or changing table.. I think we are gunna wait til things settle for that to start i'm just gunna get him a pack 'n play mostyl because i will be breast feeding i won't be comfortable with him being in his own room for several months anyway. So a pack 'n play at our bedside is perfect for now. He has a swing and chair, clothes, car seat and lots more. He still needs socks.. bath stuff.. diapers..  So once we get into this place this weekend i am gunna start hitting the stores up and get things ready for this lil boy cause he's been put off for to long and pretty darn soon he is GUNNA BE HERE!!!

I have been having real bad swelling-- like i take my shoes off and you can EASILY see where my shoes ended on my feet and it looks like my feet are trying to swell OVER my shoes. I press my thumb print into my ankle for a sec and the print stays deep and stays for SEVERAL mins its like a good half inch or so just dented into my ankle. Its insane i never had this with Emma. Patrick was on the phone for 3 hours today trying to get a special thing set up for me so i can get seen while we transferring areas on our insurence and will be covered. So tomorrow i will be able to call and make my first appt here!! I am very happy about that. That will take alot of stress from me, very soon i would like to take a visit to the birthing floor here and see what its like. Hopefully its not trashy and is nice. (the area would make ya wonder)

I have been searching for preschools in the area and non have the special programs-- its all just DAYCARES!! with a "preschool" title. NOT what i am looking for. Disapointment. Hopefully with somemore searching i can find a special program for Emma type kiddos :) I loved having her IEP's and getting regular progress reports.  She is doing to good NOT to put her into at least something though. She knows all her letters, numbers not only by counting and singing her ABC's but just by looking at the letter or number. Random order or anything-- she's really doing well. All shapes and colors, i am very proud of her and i just don't want her to lose any of what she has gained i would feel aweful. During the summer we will be working with her to ensure she doesn't though :)

Well my back freaking hurts and i need to put my feet up so .. more laterz.


things are still very overwelming and theres still so much to do..

ALSO AFTER WE GET INTO THE HOUSE-- NO MORE EATING OUT FOR LIKE 10  MILLION YEARS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SO EFFING SICK OF IT!!