not real yet

it still doesn't feel real that i'm pregnant. i have taken 20 pregnancy tests NO JOKE. I think i have maxed out all the lines on every brand. ugh, the only stymtoms i have are extra emotional & maybe a lil tired. My boobs don't hurt at all, BUT they have went FLAT & south. In the last two weeks my milk has disapeared and my let downs are really weak. So i've basically stopped.. it's upsetting. I've read articles about some women who BF through but i am not so lucky i guess :( I'm happy for the 6 months i did yet though.